- Random racist people popping up in my Tumblr inbox to tell me they should get away with saying blatantly anti-Native stuff.
- My brother coming home with little to no warning. (I like my brother: I like him better from a distance.)
- My Mom cooking Chicken and then doing her best to convince me to eat it even though I told her before I took a nap this morning that I was going vegetarian.
- My jaw randomly hurting every time I open or close my mouth.
- Poverty.
- Sobriety.
- The world, maybe?
I don't know. As you can see, I'm agitated as hell tonight. I think I might punch somebody.
I feel a lot better than I did before sleeping, at least, but I'm still generally pissed at the world. That was my mental illness acting up. This is actual, rational emotion. So I don't know why the things that annoy me decided to collaborate and make this the day I go to the pen, but they did.
I'm going to focus on working on SOSAS and lock myself in my room so I don't have to deal with my family, since avoiding human interaction for the next few hours seems like my best bet.
I do have a few errands I might have to go into the city for tomorrow morning after everyone wakes up, though, and that troubles me. I mean, I can definitely handle going out and dealing with the real world. I don't really want to, but I can.
So that's where I'm at right now: annoyed and trying not to be a bitch and wishing things were different, even though that's pointless because I can't change them.
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